T - I - Double "Guh" - Err!

So this is it: moving to LA in less than 6 hours. Shakin in my boots? Understatement. I feel like I'm spinning. But not the normal spinning, like little kids do- a complicated wreck of turbulence. On an empty stomach. It's not so much fear or nerves, it's more like... everything. I can't think of an emotion that I don't feel. ...Maybe full. Is that an emotion? I'm hungry.


(In no particular order)
Excited: New school, new friends, new life. Following my dreams. Endless possibilties.
Scared: UCLA is not ARC. Leaving everything I know, everyone I love, in Sac.
Confident: I am outgoing, smart and perfectly capable of doing this. I know I am.
Nervous: What if I get behind? What if I don't get along with my roommates? What if I eat too much and get no exercise and become unhealthy? What if I screw it all up?
Detirmined: There are no "what if's" - only me and my abilities, and my tenacity to do whatever it takes.
Unprepared: I've lived in the same house my entire life. I've always had jobs and responsibilities but this is so much more than that.
Reminiscient: I have so many people I'm going to miss dearly. Even my dog.


I probably only brushed the surface with that but, at least I can see now that it's not all negative emotions. 


And I'm not "not sure." I'm positive this is going to be a great thing. I am. It's just difficult to show that when I'm saying goodbye to pretty much everyone I'm close to. Don't mistake my somber stares off into space for anything other than my mind recapping our memories together. I may be Eeyore now, but soon I shall be Tigger.


Time to finish packing.
TTFN Sacramento
Sam